sorry it took so long. the kids are still asleep and i have a moment of quietness.

Just wanted to say that as artist (regardless of the medium-pen,brush,camera or whatever) thatlife unfortunately previals. It's that crazy balance between family and personal life and ambition and personal goals. In rare cases you can have both and in some cases(like a lot of stay at home moms I know) the sheer sense of accomplishment of being a stay at home mom and a good wife seems to make them feel accomplished and fulfilled....I am NOT one of those gals.

For a few months I have been struggling with the realiztion that until my sweeties are quite a bit older...pursuing this photo thing for a living is going to be a very long and winding road.Have I felt that being a photographer fulltime would be a lot more satisfying--heck ya.I wilt when I can't create. But it took a few weeks after a few days of my hubby giving me some days off (and some funky new hair color )

I realized that there really is a season for everything. This season happens to be motherhood. So I figure to be successful in anything I have to do--- the jobs laid out before me have to be done 110% my children aren't a disruption in my plan they are the character building molds that will ultimately decide how I handle myself as a human being.

Motherhood makes me feel joy, a lot of insecurity, it adds humor in my life, it frustrates me and it satisfies me all in one giant breathe....so right now I just relish the small victories and stepping stones like a booked wedding a new piece of equipment,etc

When I read about the struggles like people like you who are balancing so many facets including motherhood,school, creativity and doing it well (despite normal feelings an struggles) I really am in awe because I wasn't built that way. You do an amazing job and you pursue so many of your goals and that's truly comendable and inspiring to me. it gives me hope that in the future it truly is possible. So thank you miss Kellybean for sharing your struggles and really a putting a bit of hope out there for me.

i read(when I had time to read) once a book of persian stories and fables...one of the stories reminded me a lot of the story of JOB in the bible---bottom line...the last line of the story and the jist of it all was one line--- THIS too shall pass

it really holds true. regardless of circumstances ---- I always remind myself that moments are fleeting and that regardless of how unbearable/how wonderful ---they shall pass. hugs to you missy

(shhhhh ---I live vicariously through you and all the fab things you do that I wish I could do so don't you dare stop posting and photogrpahing all of it)
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